It's hard to believe that the school year is almost over. Yes, I still have a good month of classes. However, time seems to be flying now! I can't lie, I am getting excited to go back. Lately, though, I've been noticing a strange mix of emotions. I finally feel like I belong here; my apartment has really become home. Kaan and I have a pretty sound routine. I'm getting used to cooking and eating here. I feel like I have a purpose and a good group of friends (everyone, of course, will leave at the end of the semester, so it is just an illusion of stability). Things are pretty good.. I could definitely live here if I wanted.
So I have a dilemma. Giving up the life I've established here to go back to the dredge of school and work seems less than ideal.. But then I remember my friends and family back home waiting for me. I remember the access to delicious, ethnic, vegan food and organic grocery stores! I remember an entire year's worth of television to catch up on!
It's hard to be a student on study abroad. Just as you start to put down roots in a new place, you have to return home.
My trip ends on June 28. I'll be simultaneously sad and excited to go back home. I have a lot of adventures left ahead of me; going home is one step closer to starting the next one!
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Aw Sara this was such a good post! it reminded me exactly what i felt when going back even after 5 months! so this must be twice as difficult...remember my theory on crying...its totally okay... 30 seconds of tears can cleanse you :) but really, i think its so great that you got to the point that it's like a real home to you. I'm so excited for you and proud...there is so much in store for you yet!
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